AH SWEET MYSTERY OF LIFE

i just finished watching The Mirror Has Two Faces, starring barbra streisand. she plays a homely girl looking for love but at no point do i buy that shes homely. in my eyes, that woman is beautiful.

as i was watching the movie, i realized i was at the premier. i went with rosie o'donnells then girlfriend kelli.. at that time rosie and kel weren't ever seen together so kel went with me.

the reception was held at tavern on the green and i asked someone where i should sit..the someone was barbras assistant. she said sit here and don't move. i didn't move. after sitting for about 15 minutes, barbra and jim arrived and walked directly to the table i was sitting at. barbra kissed me hello and i wondered to myself, IS THIS MY LIFE ! then came donna karan who kissed me hello also.. we had met in vegas. meeting donna meant WHOLESALE to me. but babs, well that's a different story.

tonite as i was watching the movie, i wondered why in gods name do i adore that woman so much. is it her talent? her fame? the fact that she came from a poor jewish family and became an icon? i think its some, if not, all the above.

i really would love to anaylze this. isn't it a mystery of sorts?

i've haven't been in therapy for a long time now and i think if i called my dr. dan, he would have me committed.

i've worked through so many issues of my life. my childhood.. the death of my father, my mothers mental illness, my marriage, my children, the death of my son, the death of my sister and more. can you imagine me calling dr. dan and asking, why do you think i adore barbra streisand?

i suspect it will just remain one of lifes mysteries. but hell, i'd like to know.

thats all for now..


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